What you want won’t necessarily make you happy.
Sometimes you want and choose things that don’t make you happy. Sometimes you don’t want to be happy. And that’s okay. Even if you don’t admit it. Not even to yourself.
Other times you know what you’ve chosen and why. But that’s subject to change with moment’s notice.
One thing I try to keep in mind: what we choose to do is secondary to our growth, not our primary identity or fixed destiny.